Friday, April 10, 2009

my dear Black-C, bye, live in heavenly peace.


black-c是我家最可爱的猫,昨天他因血癌而去世,我真得很伤心,无奈的,我还是得接受这个事实。

我 养他已经有七年了,它是一只很高傲的波斯猫。在几个月前,带他去看兽医时,兽医说他得了血癌,我真的不敢相信,我以为血癌只会发生在人类身上,但兽医说只 要是生物都会患上的,只不过发生在在人类的机率较高,小动物的机率较少。我很相信,这个病尽然会发生在我的宝贝猫上。兽医说,他活不久的了。

black-c 好像听得懂似的。那天后,她很黏我和我的家人。从来不让我们抱也不陪我们吃饭的他,自那天后,每天都陪我们吃饭,陪我玩,睡觉,好像很健康似的。 这几天,他连跳上椅子都没力气,我就抱他坐椅子,喂他吃猫饼也没力气咬,于是我就卖猫罐头回来给他。昨天,临出门前,我看见她在客厅睡觉,我就过去摸一摸 他,告诉他,black-c, 你一定要等我回来,我今天要去买好吃的猫罐头给你吃。他看着我,点头,然后又继续睡觉。我这个笨主人尽然不知道他就要死了。我就出门了,和朋友上街。

大 约8.30pm,我没打电话给我说,black-c 死了,顿时晴天霹雳,我说不可能,因为早上出门前,他还好好的。当时,我即刻哭了起来。真的很难相信,发生太快了。我在想,如果我那天没有出门的话,我就 可以陪他就一点,又或许我一旦发现他不对劲,我或许来得急带他去看医生。又或许,我可以陪他到死,而不是让他自己等到死。我回到家,一看见她,躺在他的睡 盆里,睡得那么舒服,我真的不想接受他已死的事实。摸着他那僵硬又冰冷的身体,我真的不敢相信,他死了。

black-c 真得很乖,他病的那段时间,他还很活泼的在我面前蹦蹦跳跳,丝毫也看不出来他有病。我还以为他恢复健康了。直到昨天死去,我才知道,它是因为怕我伤心和担心,所以他才没show出一脸的病容。

black-c, 我会加油的,像你一样的坚强的。你也要一起为我加油咯。

bye black-c.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

my birthday vs 我的生日

oh, my birthday is today.. hard to believe, i'm getting 1 yr older le.. so bad..
this yr, i not yet plan tat how i wanto celebrate my birthday.. bcoz too busy of working, i really no time to celabrate.. last yr, i went to watch movie 'pirates of the caribbean 3' alone in cineleisure.. but this time, i cant find any nice movie for myself to watch, n i oso dunno wat present to buy for myself .. quite headahce when i think of it.. haha.. but it's fine, at least i wish myself happy birthday..
haha, i think i know wat to do later in the morning when i go to church le, i think this is the best present for myself.. haha, today, i wanto wear very nice nice to church, coz everytime, i goto church i simply wear only.. k la, i decided le, wear nicely to church.. yes.. thanks...
不知不觉, 又老一岁了,时间还过得真快。今年,我还没想到要为自己准备一分什么礼物,每次光想到礼物,头就大。最怕就是准备礼物。去年的生日,过得挺不错,因为奖励了自己去戏院看戏(因为平常太忙,每一年踏进戏院的次数,五只手指数起来都有剩)。今年,原本也好想像去年一样,不过呢,最近戏院上映的戏,没有合我口味的啊,就只好取消这个念头咯。
不过,在几秒前,我想到了一个好主意,就是,明天去教堂做礼拜,我要打扮得美美的。平时,穿得太随便了,明天就穿美美,打扮一下,当是今年的生日礼物啦,反正平时工作都没有机会打扮得了。好吧,就这样决定吧!哈哈。

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

boring day

i dun have to work today, i stay boring at home.. very very boring.. i blame when i'm too busy, now i oso blame coz i'm too boring.. i rather i busy til i cant differentiate the days n nite, i oso dun wanto do nothing at home, bcome mould.. boring make me feel unhappy.. coz i will think back a lots of memory.. coz i've nothing to do, then my brain juz keep working n think sumthing else, n make me start to have a blue mood..
i dun like this kind of feeling.. i hate it, y m i staying so far.. but there's a advantage n disadvantage, advantage, i can know actually, how many frens i have now, who's sincere to me n who's not sincere to me.. disadvantage is i really very boring til i dun have sumthing to do, n i lazy to drive to town to look for my frens. n y i'm the one who alwis have to drive to look for my frens, n y cant they come n find me? y? i really feel upset now.. less frens.. best frens all far away from me.. no frens can accompany me.
DL, r u really tat busy, or u dun wanto meet me? u still owe me sumthing u know... have u forgotten bout tat? my cd... i really miss it.. so hope tat i can c u asap.. thanks
nex mon, i'll start to learn in a music studio. i hope i can have all the best.. god bless me, pls!!!

Sunday, September 16, 2007

stupid internet

omg.. so long i din on9 edi.. muz 'thanks' to the TM net n my stupid modem lo.. everytime, after i had on9 for 1 mth. then sure have sumthing wrong for me to connect to internet geh.. i'm veyr pist off. a lots of reason tat make me fail to on9, like the phone line get struck by lightning, modem spoilt, tm net cable, streamyx port got prob.. all this can happen in one mth time...
but finally i can connect again.. but i dunno tomolo m i tat lucky again to connect to internet again leh.. gotta try tomolo's luck lo..
erm.. today i feel a bit tired.. erm. i think coz i'm sick, having flu, sore throat, n coughing, last nite i even coughed out the blood, so scary.. then my sis told me tat i had injured my throat.. but tonite, i still having my dinner with my favourite bbq chicken wings... hehehe.. i had headache, maybe i think too much.. b honest to myself, i'm missing DL, he said, today he'll come back to kl n he said he can find me today.. but yesterday nite around 12am, i sms him n asked him whether he'll come to find me tomolo.. he din reply, i think he mite have sleep early.. n this morning i called him, he told me he's in meeting.. so i know i cant c him today.. coz his work so busy.. maybe he had cancelled his leaves today oso. today, i plan to bring him to my church for morning sermon n plan to have dinner with him in Xenri after my performance, but since he not yet come back to kl, so all this can't b happened..
god bless him. n i hope i can c him soon..
Ck, how r u edi leh? i miss u so much.. hope u can come to back to kl asap, so i can c u again lo.. miss u..

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

unlucky year of 2007 (episod 3) - saman by traffic police

ew~ this yr i really go on a bad luck.. most of the bad things happen on me.. but i really thanks n pray to gad tat HE bless me..
on 3rd aug, met car accident.. was fined by the traffic police.. oh my gosh, this country really funny, people knocked my car, but i'm the one who get saman..
this is how the accident happened. tat day i finished my piano lesson at salak south, then i wento tmn Connaught to pay car loan at CIMB. after tat, i was bout going to my workin place in tmn Delima there. when i came out from a junction was about to turn left to the highway headin toward to kajang, suddenly a van came frm my left hand side knock my car front bumper lo.. then v stopped a side n discuss lo.. after tat, he decided to do police report so tat he can claim insurance.. actually his van damaged more than mine.. haha.. but one thing, today wat i wanto talked bout is the police in our country r dman bot profesion.. y i said so?
this is the conversation between me n the police..
Sarjan = s, Me=m, policewoman = p

after i wrote the report, a police asked me to c a sarjan. n i went up to his office..
M : 'hello, selamat petang sir' (gd evening, sir)
S : 'sila duduk.' (pls have a sit)
S : 'apa nak cakap?' (wat u wanto say to me?)
then i started to tell him how's the incident happened.
after tat, he wrote me a saman n gave it to me.
S : 'so sekarang u rasa siapa salah?' (then u think who's fault?)
M : 'i think is tat van driver, he knocked me was his fault. n y i'm the 1 who get saman?
S : 'u sudah drive how many yrs?' (how long u've been driving?)
M : '3 yrs'
S : ' yalo, cuma 3 tahun saja, tolak lagi 2 tahun P-lesen, u cuma ada 1 tahun punya driving experience.' (yalo, 3yrs only, 2yrs of P-licence, means tat u only have 1 yr driving experience)
S : 'lagipun, u perempuan. dah biasa la, perempuan drive memang cuai sikit punya. lagipun, sendiri salah, masih nak cakap orang salah.' (then, u'r female driver. female driving skills r bad all the time, then, usually gals do wrong things, they still wanto blame other people r wrong)

u know y the sarjan said so ? juz bcoz that the van driver made report earlier than me, n he wrote tat i knocked his car in his report.. so the police chose to trust the stupid van driver, n bcoz the van driver is an old man(35yrs old+-)... so the police oso think tat i'm wrong.. bcoz i'm a female, n i juz have only 1yr driving experience.

then i kept argue with him.. until a police woman came n interupted our conversation..

P : 'moi, u anak malaysia ke tidak?' (r u malaysian)
M : 'yup, i'm a malaysian. so...'
P : 'then kalau u malaysian, u patut cakap bm la.. kenapa asyik cakap english saja? u tak tau cakap melayu ke, dulu, cikgu tak ajar cakap melayu ar?' (then if u'r a malaysian, u should speak malay language la, y u alwis speak english, u dunno how to speak malay? is ur teacher din teach u when u'r at skoo?)
i was looking at her so blur. i was thinking tat does malaysia has a rule states tat v cant speak english in the police station, v muz speak malay..
M : 'my teacher taught me of coz. but i dun have much malays frens, tat's y i rarely speak bm.. n most of my malays frens, they're english educated, they speak english to me too.'
P : 'then kalau u tau cakap bm, u patutlah cakap bm la. sebagai anak malaysian, tak tau tutur dlm bahasa melayu, malu tau?' (if u know how to speak in malay, then u should use it la. s a malaysian, it's a shame tat u said u duno bm)
M : ' but never heard tat people tell me tat i've to speak bm in the police station wor. n our minister, alwiz encourage our citizens should learn more english n those government servant to attend more english intensive classes to brush up n improve their language skills wor.. but y now u tell me muz speak bm?'

then after tat, she oso know tat she's shouldn't interupt our conversation(sarjan n i), i think she oso knew tat she's too busybody....
then after she has gone, v continue to argue again..
at last, he suddenly said sumthing that make me feel like wanto vomit, too disgusting.

S : 'u nampak cantik ma, tak ada 'pak toh' ke?' (u look very pretty, y dun u go dating wit bf?)
M : ' no time.'
S : 'wa, saya semakin tengok u semakin cantik dari tadi sampai sekarang, takkan tak ada 'pak toh' punya?' (wa, u look prettier alot when u sit here til now, y u dun have a bf yet?')
i was thinkin bout all this is none of ur business, y u busybody..
M : 'then now u insist wanto give me saman, y u stil wanto question me this n tat.. u'r wasting my time..'
coz tat time was about 2.30am..
S : 'saya tau u tak puas hati jika saya terus bagi u saman, then saya bagi u chance untuk cakap lo.' (i know u sure will make noise if i give u the saman straight, tat's y i give u chance to talk lo)
har, i was so blur.. 1stly, i'll c him, coz they(policeman who checked my report) asked me to c him, 2ndly, they said when u c sarjan u can explain to him maybe can appeal.. but now, seems like wat they said were different.
M : 'if i know tat i stil have to get the saman at last, i wun sit here n argue wit u for 1hr+.. sir, u'r really wasting my time. pls la, let me go home, u dun have to work tomolo, but i need to.. now, u wanto give me saman, pls make ur move fast.'
S : 'moi, jangan cakap macam ni la. macam i buat salah saja.' (pls dun said like this la, seems like i'm the one who do wrong)
walao eh, of coz u wrong la.. if not me wrong meh.. u give saman to the one whose car knocked by people, n not the one who knocked my car..
S : ' moi, cari bf la.. u so cantik. sayanglah, kalau tak ada bf.' (u get 1 bf la, u so pretty, wat a waste if u dun have a bf)
yo.. he's really very disturban.. i know i've to say sumthing to shut his mouth up..
M : ' do u read newspaper, don't u? nowadays, so many criminal cases like rape, snatch, rob, murder, most of the victim r gals. do u think tat now if i get a bf, i wun get cheated by the guy, or killed or raped by them?'
S : ' then u cari polis la, polis tak tipu orang punya.' (then u find a policeman b ur bf lo, police wun cheat gals)
M : 'aiyo, then newspaper alwis got the news bout fake police.. i oso not dare la.'
S : ' then u cari polis betul punya la, jangan cari polis palsu' (then u find a real police la, not the fake one)
M : ' how i wanto know which one is real or fake leh?' can u pls give me the saman, i gtg.'
S : ' macam saya, mana ada saya tipu u?' (like me lo, i got cheat u meh?)
M : 'ok, pls give me the saman, pls dun waste my time, my dad is waiting outside.'
S : ' oh, bapa u tunggu luar ke? kasih saya tau awal awal ma?'

then i oso lazy to talk to him, i juz kept quiet n walked out from his office..
then he shouted behind me y tat i walked so fast..
oh my gosh, is this police chi sin wan? he has abberrent personality i think..
u c la, malaysia got this kind of police, i feel sad la..

Thursday, August 09, 2007

unlucky year of 2007 (episod 2) - MPS

Wow, i really wanto know wat had happened on me this yr?
During June : met snatch thief, luckily din get into hospital
July : get a saman from MPS(Majlis Perbandaran Selayang)
August : met car accident, finally i'm the one who get saman
from the sarjan,

Something is going wrong, isn't it?

last 2 weeks, the MPS fella came to my hse n complaint me.. oh my gosh.. n they gave 2 pieces of paper, 1 is then saman paper n another 1 is the notis to clean n clear my hse n dogs.. it's damn so stupid... they gave me saman without any notice.. then i started argued with the 2 fellas..
they wrote 3 points on the saman paper, 1st, ur house smelly, 2nd, ur dogs smelly, n 3rd ur dogs noisy.. pk.. really make me pist off.. tat's y i wanto start argue with them

this is our stupid conversation..

MPS : ' gd morning, i received some complaint from ur neighbourhood here regarding ur hse very smelly.'
Me : ' oo, is it? then can u smell sumthing smelly from me or my hse?'
MPS : ' nope.. i din smell anything wrong.'
Me : ' so, y u said my hse smelly. if my house really smell stink, do u think tat i still can stay so long in my hse with my family?'
MPS : 'yup. u'r rite.. erm, v'r sorry.. actually they complaint ur dogs very smelly, tat's y v have to come here n wanto check ur hse'
Me : ' oic.. then do u smell sumthing from dogs?'
MPS : ' oh no, v din.. '
Me : ' then y u stil said my dogs smell?'
MPS : 'erm, dunno, i juz write according to the complaint that the person made.'
Me : ' oo.. then if u jus wanto follow the paper, then y u still wanto come to check. if u wanto check, then pls check b4 u write any saman to me 1st.. so how now? wat u wanto me to do with this saman paper, u want me to pay? i din do anything wrong, but juz bcos of u simply wrote sumthing on the paper, then i have to pay.'
MPS : ' so sorry, u can go to c our superior to cancel the charge..'
then the MPS cancelled the 1st n the 2nd point.
MPS : ' but v still received report bout ur dogs very noisy.. n u c, til rite now ur dogs stil bark nonstop at me.. they're so disturbing..'
then i was thinkin r these 2 fella stupid or idiot? dogs will only bark at strangers, so my dogs dunno them, of coz they will bark at them..
Me : ' hey, sir, u 2 r strangers, of coz they'll bark at u la.. if not, y most of the people keep dogs, cos the dogs will bark at strangers n they can give awareness to the owner.. so if my dogs dun bark at u2, which means tat my dogs r abnormal. n if they dun bark, i oso wun keep dogs n let u have the chance to give me saman, rite?'
MPS : ' sorry la.. v cant cancel the saman. so u juz goto our office there n look for our superior n discuss with him, ok?
Me : ' wa, u give saman so fast but hor if ask u all to catch thief, u all cant even catch 1.. last mth, my bag've snatched, but after i reported, oso dun have any response oso..'
MPS : ' this is none of our busines.. sorry, v gtg.. v still have to check other hses.. bye'

conversation end

wow.. u c they run so fast when they know did somethin wrong.. but i'm the one still hav to pay for the saman.. so stupid..

today i wento the MPS there, n talked their superior edi.. so now she reduced the amount of saman from RM1000 to RM300.. n she said she'll highlight to the meeting tat i told her how i get those saman..
hehe.. but the RM 300 i have to pay coz my dogs dun have lesen.. but the stupid MPS din wrote bout this on the saman paper...

Thursday, July 26, 2007

unlucky year of 2007 (episode1) - snatch-thief

Wow.. it's been such a long time i've not blogging edi.. keke.. last month, modem get struck by the lightning, no time to get a new one. after i bought a new 1, i dun have time to install n on9 too.. so until now, i only can on9 successfully.. heehe.
On July, there' a lots of things happen on me.. haiz.. i oso dunno which one i should mention 1st.. end of june, on 21-24 june, i went Genting to duty for my music group for the TBW(total beauty workshop), i've learnt a lot... how to handle the music in a big event.. but on the last day i came down from Genting, i met an accident in Tmn Pertama, Cheras. Tat day, i tumpang my sideline's car down to kl, then interchange to KTM to back to sg Buloh, but then when i juz got down from the car, my bag get snatched by 2 malays on a motor. then bcoz of my bag too heavy(my bag full of books, spirulina, comb, water bottle, stationery). then they try to pull off my bag, bcoz of my bag was too heavy, tat's y they failed to snatch.. but i was pulled down by them, n my waist, head get injured. luckily i dun have any effects after that accident.. really thanks god. i'm still thinking if the thieves really can snatch my bag awaym, they'll b regret too.. coz my bag dun have any valuables, most expensive one is the spirulina only.. but i dun think that they'll know the value of the spirulina.
After i've met that accident, i'm still thinking of, if that day, the one who get snatch is one of their mom or dad, n get heavy injury have to stay in hospital or maybe coma, what would they(snatch-thief) think of? r they stil will continue being a thief? have they ever think of their family, one day some of their family member may meet this.. i'm not trying to curse them. i juz hope them will realise what they're doing now? iziit this r good for them? now bcoz they snatch people's bags, they found it s an excitement or they really short of money, but if one day they're the one who get snatch, wat will think of? will they know admit their mistake? this is a crime.
So i advise to every one on earth, pls think b4 u start to do everything, dun make urself regret in future time n for ur entire life.. life is given by our god, v've to appreciate it n use it in the better way to live out a meaningful life. n pls think of others b4 u do.
This's wat i've learnt after i met that accident. i'm lucky one, dun have heavy injury, dun need to stay in hospital. i read newspaper most of the time, alwis c the news bout bags snatched victim. 80% of them die or coma.. that time, i was so scared that i'll die or coma. what my mind comes 1st? my family my frens n my life.. so i said.. pls b more considerate to others.. p/s for those criminal.