my birthday present..

very happy this yr bd.. although i juz received a few presents, but i edi feel very happy, coz the most important to me is not the present only, is the wishes from frens..

thanks to my frens who remembering my bd.. haha, special thanks to my best frens, shari, kat, erna, jeff, n ys...i'm very happy this yr.. although dun have any bd cake, but i'm really happy lo..thank you..
i had received some presents from my fren n best frens lo.. the 1st present i get 1 is from Kok Fong lo, he is really a nice guy..who dun have bf, i can intro him to u lo.. hahaha.. he gave me the present 3 days b4 my bd, coz he said he'll b very busy later wor.. then ys present me a sharpener, jeff n erna give gong zai, pig pig n mashimaro.. my eldest sis give me mocca cookies.. n sms received from shari(best fren for more 10yrs, now v chat everyday thru email coz she's in aus now), peh ling(know her since standard4), johnson, kok fong, bee lum(same bd), li wen, xian wei, terry, poh kuen, kah jun(now in china), rodman(my kai daddy, he's only 22yr old, juz call him this nick for fun), jin wu(know him for 5yrs, but juz c him twice), jeff, seow fong, weng ken(bought 2 pieces of choco cakes for me), vincent(sing me a bd song on the phone), n how fei(wish me 5 days later,coz he think tat my bd is 30th of may), hahaha.. really thank you lo...
one thing make me more happy is, on last sat(26/05/07), my 3 best frens come to bkt Jalil to find me, tat day i'll b there coz there's a winners' nite held there.. one ticket per entry is RM45 n free 1 bottle of 100tablets spirulina.. hehe, they all bought the tickets from me, i tot they wun come edi, but at last they come... they're jeff, erna, n kat.. 3 of them dunno each other yet, they know each other on tat day, of coz i intro them together ma.. hahaha, 1 thing make me happy is they all can mix together, v have nice chat, n photograph session.. i really happy, tat day all my best frens can held together.. 4 of us like have been knowing each other very long time.. of coz i know kat since form2, erna since form6, n jeff since form2 when ice skating... hahhah, really veyr happy.. n then they give me present on tat day too.. so actually i din celebrate my bd on my birthdate, but i stil celebrate with my best frens together, although v dun have cake, the nicest present is all my best frens here to c me n play together... except shari is not there, coz now she's in aus... then v took alot of pics.. 1 thing i m not happy is my dl's prob, he blame alot tat day, not frenly to my frens.. tat's y tat day i oso dun k him... n i pass him to my ul to take k, then i play with my best frens...

hahaha, i saw wayne tat day, he's now a ccm.. wow, he's so handsome... then after the show finished, then i sms him to congratulate him has become a ccm, then he replied thanks n asked who i m.. i juz said, i'm fighting for my target to become a rsm lo, then he juz said jiayou, oh yes... then v stopped.. but i still feel happy lo, at least he got reply my sms.. n tat day, i din c ck... dunno where's he now.. coz i called him since 24/5 til now, he never answer my call, i asked his ul, his ul said his hp got prob... oic.. nvm la, i will call some other time lo... wat to do... yo, very miss wayne n ck...

my 21st birthday ^.^v

today(24/5) i wento cineleisure damansara to celebrate my bd, haha, but is alone, this is the 1st time, a very special gift to myself n nice memory.. yesterday, i told shari, she said wanto b so cham meh, no fren celebrate with u... but hor, after i think edi, i think nothing wrong to celebrate alone lo, n this is the 1st time n my 1st try.. although i feel weird.. but i dun k at all, at 6pm, i reached cineplex, theni bought the pirates of the caribbean3 movie ticket, tat day the movie is 1st the showing, so the cinema is full of people.. but i'm really lucky, coz i stil can get ticket n in the center seat.. buy 1 ticket of coz easier, coz u can sit anywhere... wow, the movie is really nice, enjoying watching the movie.. now i think back, actually watch movie alone is nothing weird n funny too, is quite enjoyable, the different is juz only no frens r sitting beside u.. but i'm enjoying the whole show.. after finish watching the movie, then i planned to walk around the curve, but finally i din, coz i really dunno where to walk, n i really feel damn weird to walk alone in the shopping complex, most of my frens know tat i seldom do shopping except with frens, but sumtime even frens ask to go shopping, i oso reject, coz i really dun like shopping.. so at last, i chose to sit in the starbuck's coffee to do my homeworks, hehehe, i brought my homeworks n camera together with me.. then i ordered drink n sit down to do hw lo.. i took some pics, of coz i asked help from people, 1 guy who's sitting in front of me.. then around 11.39pm. i wanted to go home edi, coz friday still have to work early in the morning.. the i walked along the street n take some pic lo(asked people to help me), coz my car i parked in cineplexe there.. then when i going to take my car in cineplexe, i saw one thing very nice, then i saw a guy(tat time, all shops edi closed), i asked him to help me to take a pic. then he very curious n asked me lo..he asked,'r u a local?' then i said,'yup.' then he asked,'r u 1st time here?' i said,'no, a few times'.. then i saw his mouth has opened abit, then he asked again, 'where'r u living?' then i said,'nearby lo'.. this time his mouth opened like a big O, i think u can put a orange to his mouth oso.. hahaha, very funny leh.. tat day, i think people who helped me to take pic sure tot tat i'm a tourist.. hahaha.. then v exchange our number n b fren lo..

although i celebrate my bd alone tat day, but i'm very happy.. not tat no frens to celebrate with me, bcoz my best frens all not free.. but i'll c them on this sat in bkt jalil lo..

1 thing, i very miss him, actually i called him tat day, but he din pick my call.. i think his hp got prob again..

crying eyes T.T

this mornig, still feel happy coz today got mmc meeting in crown hall there.. but after i reach there, i cant c them make me feel very disappointed lo, they din come for the meeting today.. 2days later is my bd, erm, not is 1 day, coz now edi 1am thurs.. i had received 2 presents from my frens, one is from K.F another one is from Y.S.a bit happy lo.. at least got 2 people remember my bd, but i know KF, shari definitely remember my bd, coz they did ask me few day or few weeks ago bout my celebration of my 21th bd.. but i said i got no idea, coz tat day i'll b working till late at nite, then gotta go home early, coz nex day sat, i have to wake up at 6.30am to work.. then HF oso said he'll celebrate with me but later coz now he's work outstation, will come back 2 weeks later wor, n he said after he comes back he only celebrate with me, maybe bringing me to blue lagoon, i oso dunno where's it, he said somewhere in seremban.. i dunno true onot la.. all this have to wait til he comes back only i'll know.. i oso dunno how i can celebrate my bd, feel lonely lo, actually i hope everyone of my frens wil remember, but is imposible lo.. i oso hope tat CK will remember too.. i dun want anything from him, a bd wish edi enuf..

juz now got scolded by mom, feel sad. then i cried.. now eyes pain..

tomolo(few hours later, after i wake up), i'll goto watch movie, the pirates of the caribbean n the spiderman3, both oso my favourite movie,, hahah, of coz have to watch alone, if not y i said i feel lonely leh, no frens celebrate with me.. nvm lo, since i oso never try to watch movie alone b4, this is my 1st try.. maybe a nice try..oso a present i give to myself n now i still thinking of where to watch the movie, cineleisure, kepong jusco, or 1utama.. headache.. haiz..

actually i planned to call him tomolo whether he can come out for dinner with me anywhere oso can.. s long s can c him lo.. mizz him leh...

disappoinment ~.~

ew~ whole day i've been waiting for his call, no respond.. sad, sad, sad, he din call me at all.. dun tell me he really had forgotten bout the words he said... he said he'll call me, but he din... lier.. my heart break... make me feel no mood to do things... i really miss him.. nvm, i'll call him nex week on wed.. maybe i'll c him in this coming mmc meeting.. hopefully, i can c him tat day n invite him to have dinner with me s my birthday wish la....
god bless me n him..

...love u alwiz...

still waiting for the call..~.~

ew~ i've been waiting for his call since this morning til now.. alert to my phone, not dare to go away from my phone, dare not to leave my phone aside, coz i worry he'll call me anytime.. he said he'll call me this week, but he din mention which day.. v said tat will go clubbing this sat.. probably he'll call me tomolo at last minutes.. but if he really call me tomolo, then how, i dun think i can go.. coz everything is not in plan.. ~.~ or maybe he had forgotten me.. T.T... so sad.. now my heart feel sad n pain.. nobody can help me... now already 11.30pm, he sure wun call me, i think now he maybe still having appt with frens or clients... i'm missing u.. i told myself, if tomolo he really call me, i wun answer his call.. coz i wanto let him know, i cant do things last minutes wan.. i've to plan my schedule b4 i do everything..

nex week is my birthday already, i dunno whether he can remember onot.. hope tat he'll remember my birthday la.. my present from him is juz only a simple wish lo, dun need present.. this year i really dunno how to celebrate my this 21th birthday.. will think of it later.. i think of ask him out on thurs nite n eat dinner with him or juz yam cha or clubbing if he can... but juz only with him.. for now, i dun wanto think so much 1st.. i wanto try to ask him out nex week 1st, c whether he can onot..

.. love u alwiz ..

happy n busy day...

hoho.. wat a busy day for me.. haha.. for me, of cos is a busy day la.. for most of my frens sure they will say,'wa, so senang, still say busy ar!'. haha... c.. different people, have different life style n different point of view..

today, early in the morning, i woke up at 7.30am, bcoz i've to go to pasar pagi to help my mom to buy vege, then i bought some vege n breakfast for myself lo.. haha.. i seldom wake up so early during weekdays.. coz my working time is start in the evening around 5 or 6pm.. but wat to do, mummy ask to wake up early to go to pasar pagi, if i dun do so, my mom sure will kill me.. luckily today i woke up early oso lo, bcoz after i bought vege n eaten breakfast, i wento Kepong to settle my streamyx n phone bill.. walao eh, both cost me RM286 leh.. wow, so expensive.. but wat to do la, i muz pay, if not if i get blacklisted, nex time i wanto apply others oso will b veyr troublesome.. then, after paying all this, me n my sis actually planning to go for a movie in Jusco, Kepong. but then, the time cant suit.. coz i felt sleepy(u've to understand lo, i seldom wake up so early, except sat) then at last, v din go. so v wento the JPN to take my sis's IC.. after tat v reach home.. hehe.. after v reach home, i went back to sleep until 2pm, i woke up again.. y? bcoz i wanto watch tv lo, my favourite movie shown on the tv... actually i got few of appointment lo.. n i late for the 1st one.. so met up Jeffrey in KL Central then i brought him to Elken Company to let him visit my company.. he now join another ds company which named IPC.. but nvm, it wun crash with my Elken too.. firstlym, i planned to bring him to eat the kung fu kuey teow at the RO corner, but so unfortunately, today it closed maybe today is a rainny day, tat's y they closed... then i brought him walked around at my company n introduce the products to him... but one things really make me happy is i met Wayn at there too.. n he saw me.. v juz looked at each other for few seconds, then v juz act c nothing n continue with our stuff.. haha.. really happy lo.. i miss him so much.. i never think of i will c him there.. this is y i feel happy today.. things to make me happy is invaluable.. it's really a surprise^.~

after finished visiting company, v went for dinner at the Wan Tan Mee stall there.. then v chat there.. at least, i had convinced Jeff a bit to come to the Winners' Nite.. at least, he listened to wat i said n he said he maybe will come n depend on the day whether he is free onot.. at least, there's a improvement, bcoz b4 tat, he is totally reject me without i saying a word.. after my dinner, i start with my busy journey, y i said so... then i picked up my dl at Mid Valley bus stop, then i sent Jeff home, n then i followed my dl to go to his appointment. then i met Chen Yi.. v chat for a while.. after tat, i rushed to Tmn Pertama there to met Sook Mun.. n i had cancelled one appointment with William they all.. coz cant suit the time.. after tat, around 11.30pm, i fetched Sook Mun home. then quickly rushed to Mid Valley Bus stop to drop my dl there, bcoz then last bus to Puchong comes at 12am sharp.. so if he missed the bus, then i've to send him back.. of coz i dun wanto do so.. 1st, journey far, 2nd, i'm tired of rushing, 3rd, waste of petrol n time.. tat's y i quickly sent him there..

while on my way back to Sg Buloh, i listened to hitz fm, bcoz i'm thinking of CK again.. everytime, when i drive, i will automatically tune to hitz fm, coz i know he does listen to hitz fm too.. miss u.. muacks...

heartbreak...T.T

today, after i had finish my work in Thean Hou Gong, thne i picked up my dl, Vincent n met up my ul, uncle David in Tmn Connaught to go to Vincent sis hse to visit his mom.. coz his mom sick edi.. after v visited his mom, me n uncle David wento the Pasar Malam in Tmn Connaught there.. wow, it's been such a long time i din go to nite market edi.. n i dun have a hobby to go to nite market too.. coz i dun like crowded place.. n v walked n ate over there lo..
when i planned to go home, me n uncle David walked toward to my car tat time, i saw Ching n William, n 2 of their frens... i was so happy when i saw her.. but after i had talked to her, i found tat she had changed.. i dun think she really wanto fren with me.. y.. coz when i questioned her, she was trying to run away from my questions... n then, she said, if i wanto find her, i can straight away find William.. coz if i can find William, then i can find her... do u know when she said so, my heart felt pain.. oh my gosh, i know her for so many years edi, now i wanto find u out yamcha, oso have to get thru William 1st ar.. wat the hell is all about, har.. Ching, is my best fren since i'm standard4 till form 5, v'r actually very best fren, but our frenship has been broken up due to some consequences, bcoz there'r some body want to spoil it.. at last, v really broke.. T.T.. William, is my primary skoo classmate... i know tat they know each other only for few year coz they know when they'r working in the same company.. but i really sad, u know.. frens for so many years edi, now wanto find her oso need to pass thru some1 b4 i reach her.. do u know how my heart feels...i really feel sad... u know, my felling comes all of sudden, liek the turnado comes without any notice..

but, though i feel sad, at the same time, i think of Ck, this few days i not dare to call him coz i worry tat i'll disturb him... i really miss a lot.. n somemore, last sat, he said he'll call me this week, i dunno he'll b calling me onot la.. but then, i stil will wait for his call de.. but i do really hope, if v really go clubbing this sat, i hope juz only 2 of us..

... miss u n love u always, CK

happy mothers' day

yesterday is mothers' day, how all of u celebrate with ur dear mom? haha, i 'm actually already celebrate with my mom last week, wednesday 2/5/07, that day was public holiday, so everyone of us is damn free.... but yesterday v celebrate again, bcoz v celebrate with my grandma... yesterday v'r very happy n enjoying. i can c tat my dear grandma really happy n enjoying too.. yesterday v can say tat v'r celebrating with big family, wiht my 5th uncle's family n my 1st aunt's family too. tat's y i say my grandma was so happy last nite.. bcoz comes to mothers' day, she still has 3 children celebrate with her.. although she still got another 3 children cant come due to some circumstances, but i know she's really enough of appreciate wat she has today... me,myself oso feel very happy.. ^.~ after our dinner, v went to hte sunway semenyih resort club house there.. v changed 9bucks for pool games.. me n my sister play twice, n my uncle n my dad play once.. while v'r playing the pool, 4 moms(my mom, my 1st aunt, my 5th aunt n my grand ma) gather together to play carrom.. haha, all of them r already a mom for few children... yesterday, really is a beautiful scene n pic to c..y i say so, coz the carrom table juz nex to the pool table.. while waiting for my turn to play, i'll look to the carrom side there.. all moms there r really happy n enjoy... v playyed til around 9pm+, then v went back to my uncle's home again. b4 v left there, v had taken some picture at the club house there.. then v chit-chat at my uncle's house once v reached his house.. my bro brought his er-hu, n performed for us, n my dad n my uncle were doing the 'yim kuk gai' (salty chicken) s our supper.. then after a while, my uncle's fren came, then i played the chinese chess together with them.. haha v play under the rain, holding an umbrella, damn funny, this is the first time i did.. n i won the game too... hahaha.. first time i won in chinese chess with elderly man ooo..

wat a wonderful mothers' day nite...i do really hope this picture will c it every year... ^.^

another unhappy day

today, i feel damn unhappy when the dark falls on me... feel so upset.. today i finish my work at 8.30pm too, regularly reach home at 9pm +. tomolo will b mother's day, so my eldest sis's church is having a dinner for celebrating the mother's day.. so sad, i cant join them with my family n those church members, coz they end at 9pm.. but nvm, luckily i feel full... dunno y.. i juz oly ate abit then i feel full maybe is due to my bad mood, i think so...
when 10.30pm, i miss called CK, he din answer my call.. i guess tat he has something to do.. tat's y i din disturb him.. then i called him again at 11pm, finally he picked uphis phone.. oh my gosh, i miss his voice s well s his face.. then i asked he will go clubbing ? he said, might b nex sat, n he will call me nex week to tell me.. bcoz i'm quite a buzy person, tat's y i need to arrange my schedule.. hmm, he's in penang tat day, actually i called him oso for another purpose, which is wanna ask him out for drinks.. but nvm la.. i still will c him this sat.. i hope this sat he wun bring frens along.. coz i juz wanna b with him,juz 2 people.. i really do hope this sat is only with him n he wun ffk me...
i feel unhappy today oso bcoz of him.. coz i'm very miss him... friday, i called him for few times, sms him, he oso din reply n cant reach to his phone.. till nite i got him,he only tells me tat he dunno bout it.. i dunno whether he's really dunno, or he jz never care... m i really annoying to him???

???insomnia???

this few days, i hardly get into sleep coz cant stop thinking of him.. my mind full of his picture..
on the 8th, i met him in kepong.. i called him out.. that time he was having dinner with his 3 male frens.. i had a bad mood tat day too.. so i din join their dinner together.. but now i felt regret, y dun i join them n get know to his frens... but tat day i really had a blue mood, i cant even feel like to smile to anyone... then i told him v juz meet after his dinner with his frens.. around 12.30am, he had jus finished his dinner, then v met up again.. then v went to a mamak stall in manjalara, v drinks at there for few minutes.. then v left.. firstly i tot of left there earlier so tat he can go home earlier, dun need to stay so late, coz he's staying in puchong, 45mins travels from kepong.. i had told i juz unhappy tat day, coz my life full of stress n tensions.. i feel like wanna cry juz to release.. finally, i cried in front of him.. then he accompanied me, n gave me lotz of advice..ends up tat day he went home at 2am.. i understand wat he's saying.. coz all this i remind myself all the time.. finally, i said i juz wanto cry only... actually i know wat shud i do.. my life still have to go on..
i can c his tired eyes.. at last, i listened to his words i go home quickly..
when i reach home, i called him when he'll going to clubbing.. he said maybe nex sat.. ok.. then i will c him again..
i really miss him so much.. do u know i feel.. everynite hardly get into sleep, bcoz of cant stop myself thinking of him.. he's really a different guy from most of the guys i know.. maybe this is bcoz he oso an elkenian.. can say tat elkenians r all special.. like y.s, wayne, pauline, n a lots more.. even male n female in Elken, u can feel their specialities n difference compares to others who not elkenian..bcoz elkenian has different mindset from others.. this is true.. coz i'm a Elkenian too.. i miss u..
..i love u Chee Keen..

fall in luv sick ~.~

this few days, i found myself having some prob.. fall in love sick again.. i have a secret tat my best frens dunno yet.. this keeps me feel uncomfortable... i dun wanto let them know, bcos i worry tat they will pour the cold water from my head.. maybe wat i'm thinking now n wat i do now r incorrect, but i still wanna continue to live this way..
now i'm very agresive in Elken, n i met 2 guys tat i like, one is Wayn, another one is Chee Keen.. i told my best fren included Y.S, Alexis, n Kat tat i luv wayne, n i told them i still in survive in Elken is all bcos of Wayne.. all this is true... is bcos of Wayne, now u'll only c changes from me.. but after i met Chee Keen, i found tat i luv him more than Wayn.. this probably maybe i know tat i can have Wayn in future, coz i know Wayn is tat kind of guy who has a high demand on his gf, n i know i will never can meet his requirement.. though, Chee Keen not tat handsome s Wayn, but at least v'r fren, i still have a chance to get him.. i believe a love relationship should b start from frenship.. this is the difference n gap between Wayn n Chee Keen.. but s i know, i think he already has a gf either a gal who has trap in his heart.. but nvm, i still work hard for him..
if i tell my best frens, i really dunno wat they will say on me.. this few days,all this make me feel unhappy.. my bd wish for this year, is i hope i can celebrate wit Chee Keen.. Maybe, he will reject for my invitation.. maybe he will run away far from me..but i really miss him....